Day 26 of Advent: the Christmas Eve weight

“And every Christmas I go back to the scene where it all started and ask once more: ‘Can I bear you again? Can I be your midwife, your mother, your wet nurse, your nanny—anyone; someone who will nurture the birth of Love on earth and goodwill toward all man?’ ”        –Erika Morrison


There is a heavy weight that bears down over our shoulders on Christmas Eve, like the one Erika describes here as she reflects on what it means to get through Advent to the actual birth of Jesus.

The weight may be that we have to stuff our children’ stockings after they go to bed, getting everything ready for the arrival of St. Nicholas and his abundance of goodies.

Or maybe it’s a different weight that we carry,

the weight of caring for humankind,

the weight of providing a space for the Savior Child to come out of His mother’s womb and into our spaces again,

for another year to be marked on the calendar,

another sign to keep us going on the way to the Kingdom.

We’ll have a Christmas Eve meal together tonight, and while we sit around the table and laugh and talk and enjoy an abundance of food,

every now and then, things go quiet, and if you catch it,

you’ll feel it,

that weight,

the way it felt that long night of contractions and heavy sighs,

that long darkness under the shining star that led everyone to

His little throne of straw.

We are the ones who are asked to nurture Love on earth and goodwill toward all man, aren’t we?

We are the ones who carry the weight,

the ones who are tangible flesh,

the tangible flesh of today

who have hands to reach

and pockets to empty

and kind words to give

when everything is hatred and prejudice

swirling in the air around us.

We carry the weight tonight.

We sit beside Mary and birth the Infant Savior into our midst,

release His Spirit back again

into our flesh and bones and blood.

Carry the weight,

and let it bring the Love and goodwill out of you,

and miracle of all miracles,

promise of all promises

we’ll finally, one day,

see Kingdom actually come,

that Infant-King bringing all things into

His holy and right reality

before our very eyes.







2 thoughts on “Day 26 of Advent: the Christmas Eve weight

  1. This is moving to think of the weight felt the night of Jesus’ birth and to sense it now in the lulls of activity is so powerful. I’d missed some of your advent pieces; I’m in tears as I catch up this morning. What a blessing your blog is to me. Thank you Kaitlin.

    1. Helen,
      Thank you for joining me here, and for catching up on the advent reflections! Christmas should linger longer with us than we let it sometimes. I’m so glad you are reading and being moved to think and feel and imagine new things. That’s my hope here. Blessings in this new year!

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